Perspective

PERSPECTIVE

the smallest changeToday I awoke with a totally different perspective on things that have been going on in my life. My Mother (who will be 90 on Dec 15th) took a fall almost 2 weeks ago and although nothing is broken, she hurt her knee and sprained her ankle. She lives in an Assisted living facility about 15 minutes from my home but this has stretched the staff there to care for her. Because of her dementia she has really struggled since the fall as her routine has been disrupted with xrays, dr’s, nurses, physical therapists an ankle brace etc. She is now fearful of another fall and has for sure lost a piece of herself in all of this…

Over the past 2 weeks myself and other family members have spent countless hours with her and I found myself feeling so burdened with the responsibility of taking care of her while also trying to run a business and take care of myself at the same time. She has gotten to a place now where she doesn’t like to be alone and every time I go to leave she is so sad that it breaks my heart. Visiting her had become just one more thing that I had to fit into my already busy life and after a 2 day melt down earlier this week and lots of prayer, I woke up this morning with a totally different perspective…..And here it is…

My Mom has been here for me my entire life and although we’ve had our challenges, there has never been a time where I didn’t know she was in my corner and would be there for me no matter what was going on in my life. So here she is now almost 90 years old and it is my turn to be there for her. This morning while I was getting ready to go see her I was thinking about how lucky I am to have this time with my Mom knowing that there will come a time in my life where I would give anything to get up in the morning and drive over to have a cup of coffee with her and share in conversation. All of a

sudden I realized that I am not going to visit her just because she needs me but because I need her in my life as well…I am so blessed to have this time with her and moving forward I will cherish every minute of it. Today when I walked in she said “I am so happy you are here. It just makes my day when I start it off having you with me.” I helped her get dressed and then we sat down and shared a cup of coffee. It was totally amazing and I look forward to a repeat tomorrow…

sunrise

As I was driving home I was thanking God for this “perspective change” and it brought me to something else that I sometimes take for granted. That something is the freedom that I have in my life to be able to do this. To be able to choose to get up in the morning and go visit my Mom or to walk on the beach and watch the sunrise or to just sleep in if that’s what I choose to do is the most amazing gift. I worked hard for this freedom and am so blessed to have this amazing life. Life is all about choices and today I chose to shift my perspective and live in gratitude for all of the blessings in my life…

What a difference a day makes…

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